More than Enough !

“Oh please, this is more than enough!” I remember saying this myself at a lot of dinners and then helping myself for another spoonful of dessert…..I guess it’s not just with food, we use it with almost anything and anywhere! ……."Nothing" is ever enough for a human being!...we want more n more n more….the moment we achieve something, we are hungry for more….

Well, again it depends what u want more on what kind of a person you are ….If it’s a research scholar, finding the solution isn’t enough for them, finding more than one solution is what they want ! If its an athlete, winning national level games isn’t good enough, winning an Olympic medal and more n more of those medals to follow….If it’s professionals, all they want is raise in their salaries and a promotion every time an appraisal is done., the list is never ending !

“Is there ever a limit to what we want in life?” I have asked myself this question again and again, but the answer is the same always… “NO”….I don’t know how many of you get the same answer, but am sure there are an umpteen number out there! While there are people who want more and more for whatever it is they are doing (like me), there are people who always seem to hate what they are doing and want to do/have something that others do/have. While I belong to the “Not enough” category, the latter belong to “the grass is always greener on the other side” category. I have met people from both the categories but haven’t failed to notice that people from neither are content with what they have! Neither am I. Long before I started working, getting a job was the only thing that kept me awake at nights, but now that I have got one, I find myself always thinking about when and how to go to the next level, how to impress my superiors, how to get a good appraisal, etc. I can say that I am happy but not content! (I know a lot of you wouldn’t agree, but I somehow managed to see a thin line of difference between being happy and being content) The hunger was, is and will always be there I guess!

Well, I can say that at least I am happy, but I don’t think the second category ones aren’t even happy, leave alone being content. One thing I can say for sure is they can never be happy and never accept that they have enough, at least that’s my opinion. I know at some point I will say “this is enough” or at least I want to, but I wonder will they ever be able to say it? Will anyone of you ever be able to say it?

NOSTALGIA !

What comes to ur mind when u hear this word? school? College? Hostel? Hometown?...friends? ……I guess these are the most common answers anyone can come up with …..

the breeze in ur hometown, the road side “baddis” (small shops) on our way to school, the assembly halls of our school, the playground, mess halls and dormitories of the hostel, yearly celebrations of the college, group studies in the corridors of the hostel,….the list goes on …..there are so many things that come to my mind when I go back in time…..and all of them so lovely and fun filled, life was so “worry free” back then …….

Having spent my childhood in two different cities, I have very close ties to both Hyderabad and vizag, I guess I can say I have two home-towns! ……and every time I go to hyd or vizag, I have butterflies in my stomach ( usually that happens only when you are tensed, but trust me, this one happens only bcoz of sheer excitement, one of those kiddish kinds ) ……I feel so happy to see the same old railway station /airport and the same roads now transformed into two lanes or four lanes ….I do miss the old baddis, that were so much a part of my childhood picture of the town, most of them are probably gone now, and have been replaced by much bigger departmental stores……I don’t necessarily have to visit the city, the moment I see any of the locations in films, I am jumping with excitement “hey, this is the same old chaat place…blah blah blah ” …..I guess that’s how ur ties to ur origins are ……u just cant let them go…..

My school…..my teachers….every time I visit that part of the town, it drags me 15 yrs back in life …….the every day morning assembly, singing vandemataram, the pledge, waiting for the recess and lunch breaks, the games hour, rushing back home and telling mom every bit of what happened through out the day at school, those tiffs with kids from neighbouring schools, waiting for the annual school days, those unending chats about crackers for diwali….sigh !!! all those days are gone …..but yes they have left us with such wonderful memories ……thanks to orkut, I got to connect with some of my old school frenz and see pictures of my school …..

For me, my hostel is more than just a place where I stayed, it’s the place where I learnt a lot of things about life, and which are a part of me today, its my home away from home…..thanks to the hostel, I have a bunch of great frenz today……I remember when I went back to the college an year after my graduation to collect my TC, the moment I entered the campus, it was such a wonderful feeling as if I was going back home….the huge classrooms, the labs, the hostel steps where all of us would spend the evening, the college bus …….I dint realize that I would miss these things so much until I went back a second time…..I dint realize how attached I was to the place until I saw someone else sitting in the same classrooms where we used to sit, someone else staying the same room where I used to stay……..to be frank, I felt bad…..as if it was my own…well, I spent 4 years of my life there I guess its justified !!!.....

Well…..it always feels great to talk about things like these, but at the same time u will feel a li’l sad that all those days are gone …..I guess it leaves and sweet bitter feeling with everyone …...doesn’t it ? and yes that’s NOSTALGIA !

Commitments and Compromises .....

How do you know that u can spend the rest of your life with this man/woman? How long do you think, u have to spend with someone to make a decision like this? A month? an year? couple of yrs? don’t know , right ?..... Even if you decide, how sure can you be that you will be happy with that person? …..some say that they just need one look (love at first sight, so to say)..and some say that they need some time (let’s be frenz, date for sometime and then ….)…well, I have met people from both schools of thought…..and they seem to be very happy with their lives …good for them …I don’t know which category I belong to thou’, but I guess I am happy enough…..

Now that we are talking about relationships, I am definitely talking about marriage, which I guess a lot of us still believe is the final or eternal commitment in a relation …..marriage and commitment are two words that are used interchangeably…..well, I have met people who don’t believe in the institution of marriage, and who argue that one need not be stuck in a relation with the label of “marriage”……but don’t we get stuck in a relation even without the label? That’s my side of the argument ……. A relationship itself means “commitment” to me …..a commitment to share, a commitment to be there, a commitment to care for someone unconditionally, a commitment to understand, a commitment for everything …..and I believe these commitments don’t necessarily exist only in a marriage, they are everywhere, they are between friends, they are between siblings, and they are between parents and children ….. why talk about just relations, aren’t we committed to our job? Aren’t we committed to our passions and try to keep them alive?....so why is someone afraid of the word “commitment” in a marriage when it’s everywhere in our lives ……

While commitment takes the first place as the buzz word in a relation/marriage, the second word is probably "compromise"! ……yeah, I understand these words do exist in a relation but don’t u think it would be better off describing a relation using beautiful adjectives than using such heavy and serious words.?......happy words always make something seem so beautiful and good, it’s a feel good factor …..Am sure u can’t be happy always and forever in a relation, all of us have our own share of ups and downs…..but I feel we need to put some extra effort to make things a look a li’l brighter than they actually are …..

Finally….coming to the point….I know I have been beating around the bush…..that’s b'coz I don't know the conclusion myself…..just stay happy, do things which make u happy, am sure it will brighten up our life and the life of “the one” in our life …. !!!

Life AT work or Life AFTER work?????

"Duniya ka naara…..Jame raho !!!!" Anyone who has watched taare zameen par would understand what I am talking about ……my life has become exactly like that now …..and to be precise, like a military drill I would say ….I miss one thing and everything just falls apart…..anywayz, for those who don’t know, I have recently started working and that’s what this is all about…..well, that’s the first part of that song which very well describes my life after starting work….and the second part which goes “yahan alag andaaz hai……”, yes u guessed it right ….my life before starting work….

Jokes apart, and to be very honest, I am really liking my life …..atleast I feel like I am doing something worthwhile with all that 23 yrs of education ! ……..I don’t even realize how time flies by …..weeks just come and go , and u don’t even realize….and to my astonishment there is much less to do at home, I mean the household chores when u r working rather than when u r at home …..everything seems to be done by 8 ..while I used to slog till 9 in the kitchen before !!!...surprising right?...i guess u tend to do a lot more when u r at home just to keep urself busy …..

I expected that atleast the weekends would be fine, but thanks to our apartment hunting, my weekend slot has been dedicated to that activity……and I terribly miss my extracurricular activities like jewellery making, clay molding etc etc…..I just hope this hunt comes to an end soon and I have some time for all the extra things I like doing …..I thought I would talk more about my work once I start working and not more about my life after work ….but I guess it’s the opposite ….I keep talking about how busy I have got and how 24hrs seems very less for a day ….and to my surprise, lots of my frenz do agree with the idea that it should be more than 24hrs ! ….hopefully sometime in future we will see tht too…..

I am more excited about all the fancy things I am getting as a part of my work just like a li’l kid getting excited about his new bicycle….ya ya …I am coming there, will tell u all about it …..I have a laptop, so that I can work from home sometimes…..and mind you, its much better than my husband’s hahahaha ! …..and I get to flaunt it everyday ……since most of my meetings are with the clients, I get to buy a lot of good clothes to wear and whats even better is, a reason to defend all that shopping ..yoohoooo !!!.......

There are more angrez around my cube than desis…so I get to hear a lot of amusing stuff they keep talking about ……these angrez, I should admit, have the capability of talking about anything and everything under the sun, even if it doesn’t make any sense…….;o) …..they discuss about puppies and kittens for hours together…I have a neighbour who has been complaining about his dog for a week now …the reason – the dog happened to eat 1 lb of his very expensive cheese !!!!hehehehhe……and there is another lady in the next cube who keeps imitating southern folks (the ones who say “y’all” instead of “you all” ..and “baa baa” for “bye bye”)….i guess they are clients and she happens to be in conference calls all the time ….thank god I have my Ipod to my rescue, otherwise with all this going around, I am sure I wouldn’t be able to concentrate on what I am doing …..

It was tough concentrating on my work the first few days, but I guess I got the hang of it now ……as of my friends mentioned I am sure I will be saying “faayyyyyst“ for “fast” and “phaaasworrrd” for “password” pretty soon …….

Well, am so happy I have something to write about now,….or would it be better if I said my “enthusiasm” to blog is back ……